February 15, 2015
February 10, 2015
February 7, 2015
As I lay here staring into the dark, I can hear my husbands breathing softly and heavily, as he sleeps deeply. I can feel the three cats positioned around me. (My own personal heaters) Oh they make me so jealous. I wish my brain had a turn off switch. I wish the brutal stabbing pain in my back would cease and let me rest. I wish my finger and arm didn't hurt so bad. I wish I could make the tears stop falling. I wish for a Massage, to be perfectly honest.
Hmm Oh the dreams I have. The peace I have is that I know I will one day have a perfect pain free body.
But I can wait till then. So in the meantime I'll hide the tears for midnight while the rest are sleeping soundly.
February 1, 2015
Oh Where oh where has my little lamb gone?
What I really would love is to steal away with a girlfriend one afternoon and hit up a restuarant on third street I've never been to and sit and giggle and be girls. Maybe try on clothes at a clothing store, defintely try on shoes and jewelry.
A NEW Adventure
I want to love and care for these children. I want them to leave her feeling that they are not unwanted, unlovable, terrible children.